I am on a quest - for authenticity, and for whatever God has planned next for my life. Everything here is truly me - that's my promise to myself. My thoughts, my feelings, my journey as a follower of Jesus.
I have thought about blogging for a long time, and then I've thought about it some more. Many things have made me hesitate - my perfectionistic nature, my self-consciousness, my busy schedule. But I have just recently come to realize that the main reason I have resisted is the fear that you won't like me - not if you know the real me. But I have come to a point of having a very deep desire to live the remainder of my life with authenticity, so I am going to trust you. Whether or not you still like me, I am trusting those who love me to love me anyway, to accept what I write here, not as fact, but as a real expression of who I am and what I think. It's just a thought . . .
I have realized that I do not necessarily want an audience for this blog. It's OK if over time one develops, but the writing is not about an end product. This is about me putting thoughts and feelings into tangible form so that I can grow. It's about self-examination. But it can also be about writing as an act of worship. Putting it in blog format is making me be more disciplined about it than I am with personal journaling.
So, if you are reading this, you are welcome here. If God uses something I write to touch you in some way, or if arguing with something I write helps you clarify why and where you are in your life journey, then know that it is God's hand doing so, not me. I am just struggling along and learning as I go.